God Likes it when we talk to him. I go throughout everyday talking to him like theres no tomorrow. quite literally. The past two days i've just broke down and Cried because I needed somewhat of a hug from God. And I had prayed to him and talked to him but not like I usually would. My spirit was different I just well how he pointed it out to me today was I basically demanded of him. I ask him to forgive me for this. For I am deeply sorry.
It seems as though i've been telling alot of people sorry lately. Whats going on? I never hurt people! I'm a people person! The devil has found every single excuse that he knew would work on me... and most of them did.
I even hurt a friend recently and I hope he forgives me... and I truly cannot stop thinking about it. It makes me so sad... I just don't know what else to say to make him forgive me. He has to forgive me though the bible says too do so.
I can do better than this. I have done better than this. I sometimes feel as if I'm walking on water with Jesus and even though i don't drown i'm going under enough that my eyes are blind.
Everyone has there moments though. Just lately seems like mine are coming more and more often. Is it because the Regional Coenvention is coming up and Youth camp is coming up in a couple weeks and the devil KNOWS that God is going to use me? IS this why? He can back off then... I am so tired of life and its emotional set back. Everyone is a baby. And I'm so tired of everyone complaining. And then we talk about going out. And then they talk about talking about going out... if that makes any sence. Babies. And some of them are proud of it!
I wish God could relieve me from life for 5 minutes everyday every week, ect.
I wish I was continueously around those of my friends whom truly love and serve the Lord and desire to be in his persence every moment of everyday. Those who strive to follow him and seek his face. Am I the only one who feels this way? I'm sure I can't be.
Any comments on this thought?

I do request your prayers though... Life is Life and we have to live it everday. unfortuantly we can't just decide to go be with God in heaven... otherwise each of us would probably already be there. I guess at times I just have these moments where I go, EVERYONE JUST FREEZE! just grow up! and get over it! move on! Learn something! quit trying to control the church and just grow up!
I've always been one to listen more than speak more. the Bible says to be wise as serpants and harmless as doves. I guess I have just made this a true habit.

~Denise~